Hey again

Hello, I'm sorry I wasn't posting anything for the past month. I was busy, then internet came, then depression. Yes. I suffer from depression. As per usual I'm a very positive, happy unicorn person, but lately I've been sad, cranky and mean. I have no clue what is happening to me. But now I'm shy and I started to love being alone , in a dark corner. Maybe I'm becoming an introvert? They are really cool people, usually they have the most interesting stories to tell. Now I start to fell down, sad or even worse - alone. Which I know I'm not. I have a very few, but the best friends I can ever ask for and I'm so blessed to have them, but I keep to be pushing them out of my life, which is making me question my actions. What am I doing? Why? Earlier today I chatted with a very close person to me and she said that it may be because I'm turning in to a teen. I always wanted to be a teen, because you are older and you have boyfriends or girlfriends, but if this is what is this all about, then I'm leaving the boat to teen years and will rather wait for the boat to adulthood or even better - just don't go with any boats and live my life the way I want to. Speaking of boyfriends, on the 12th of March, I got a boyfriend. He is my classmate which is a little awkward, but he's a really sweet and awesome person. I got a little (well very) annoyed when my other classmates tease me because of it. Especially his close friends. SO ANNOYING! But we are really good friends now. He's a pretty shy person, so I was shocked when he texted me these adorable things like: 'do you know how beautiful you are?' or 'I want to send you infinity of kissy faces, but it's impossible'. I know right? He texts me the sweetest things that I instantly melt for. He is literally the sweetest person ever. Speaking of sweet - I ate two chocolate bars and an intire brick of white chocolate. Guess who will have new friends on their face soon? Obviously me. Dear life, why are you so rude? Ok, sweethearts, I have to go now. Probably see you next month.

Au Revoir